There's a song by Tyler the creator titled "Boredom" and in the lyrics Tyler talks about his struggle with being lonely. This is something that I feel I have really struggled with during my semester at school. I was lucky to be able to attend my dream college. It's in the perfect city, the weather is always nice, and the people here are so diverse and from all walks of life. There are always fun things to do on campus and downtown but this semester I feel like I've barely left my bed. I don't have a car so I depend on my friends for rides to places. They're my ticket off campus. Sadly most of my close friends are science majors so they spend most of their free time in the library. So my semester consisted of a continuous schedule of working and going to school during the day and going to frat parties at night. And as much fun as that can be, it started to get real old. I began to get so frustrated that I lived in such a beautiful city and I barely had the chance to explore it. I wanted to travel, I wanted to go to the beach, go to flee markets, see a show etc etc.
Obviously complaining made me feel worse and I didn't want my friends to feel bad over a course load they couldn't control. These restrictions made me feel trapped. Day after day I would confine myself to my room while all my other friends were busy. The more Netflix I watched the more lonely I became.
Rex Orange County features in Boredom and on the track he says, "find some time to do something". See the thing is, I was letting my circumstances completely control me. Instead of trying to fix the problem or find other solutions, I let it completely sweep me off my feet. In life you're not always going to be able to control your circumstances. There are just things that are completely out of your control. But you do have control over how they make you feel and how you're going to react to those circumstances. Although I might not be able to leave campus as frequently as I would like, I can still make the best of the situation. So I made a list of all the things that I wanted to focus on doing. Things that made me feel happy and like I wasn't wasting my time.
fulfilling pastimes other than Netflix
Creating this list really help me to remember all the things I used to be passionate about. It's one of the reasons I decided to write on my blog again. If you're ever in my situation and you're feeling lonely or bored with life, make a list. Make a list of activities you know make you feel good or better yet try some you've never done before. Get yourself out of that same monotonous routine and find some time to do something.
keep your eyes open