Self care has been a phrase that is being thrown around more and more in pop culture. You see it all over twitter and its becoming increasing popular in the skincare and beauty industry. We all have daily self-care routines like brushing our teeth, showering, and using deodorant. They have become ingrained in our daily routine. But sometimes we decide to throw in some extra steps when we feel our routine is lacking. We might throw on a face mask, or a hair mask, we might buy ourselves a sugary treat or splurge on a new item. All of these things focus on healing our outer selves, and it sometimes masks the thing that really needs healing, what’s inside of us. The part of us that’s stressed, that lacks confidence and drive. Now don’t get me wrong I’m all about slapping a face mask on from time to time. Although I’m not 100% sure that they actually work, they do create a sense of calmness when I am in a stressed mood. But the thing is, face masks only heal a temporary problem. In order to fix the underlying problem, you have to look to yourself.
Recently I encountered a big bump in the road that really threw me off guard. I felt like I was driving on a smooth open road. Things were going good in my life when all of a sudden, a boulder was thrown into my path. This bump in the road had a downward spiraling effect and left me pretty fragile. Looking back at it now, I don’t think this bump in the road was as big as I originally thought, instead of a boulder maybe a pebble, but because of the emotional toll it took on me it uncovered a lot of emotions and fears I was trying to suppress. Like a can of worms, I exploded, and sadly this feeling consumed me for multiple days. Last night I took the time to go through all my old photobooks, journals, and blog posts. I’m extremely grateful that I’ve started documenting my life with photos and written words. I think one of the innately good things about social media is that you can go back and look at your past self. Sometimes we forget ourselves. The memories that we have are only our own version of reality and they’re distorted by emotions. As I flipped through the photos from my time in high school I was greeted by strong presence of my past self. She was so smart and driven. Involved in everything under the sun. She had dreams of going to California and living a life luxury. She knew she was going to be successful and had no doubt about it. Sometimes I feel like I’ve disappointed her but now I realized that she would be proud. I have a strong GPA, a job that I enjoy, an executive position in my sorority and hopes for studying abroad. I might not have a loving boyfriend or and exact idea of what I want to do with my life but I’m growing. I’m starting to open up more and share things about myself with the one’s around me, I’m learning to love more not only myself but the people who have hurt me. I have conditioned myself to focus on the negative when the positive shines so bright. I know that everything with work out, because it always does. My anxiety and fears are IRRATIONAL. I can’t keep continuing to let my brain destroy itself when It was created for so much more. So, the next time you treat your self to an extra donut or decide to get your nails done, try to also reflect on yourself. I can’t push this enough but WRITE THINGS DOWN. Us humans have figured out an amazing way to put our thoughts on paper. This allows us to see what’s going on in our head. Our thoughts shouldn’t be stuck there, they deserve to be free. So, write things down or tell a friend how your feeling. Release those thoughts before they consume you. Get out of that tunnel and see what’s right in front of you.
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January 2019
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