Seeing a person smile is one my favorite things in the world. There is something about the way their eyes shine that is like no other. And to me, thats how you can see someones true beauty.
Beauty has always been a big part of society and in today's times there seems to be a model of the "perfect women"
She has smooth skin
She's has shiny hair
She's essentially unattainable.
I would say that I'm lucky to have never been in a place where I hated my body. Thanks to my genetics I was never considered overweight or even had to worry about what I ate. I try to eat fruit and vegetables everyday but I never question having cake as my afternoon snack or drinking soda more than 2 times a day.
Now don't get me wrong, there are things that I wanted to change about my body when I was younger (like my lack of curves, my big forehead, my unruly hair, etc etc), but I never made it a huge priority in my life to obsess over these insecurities.
It wasn't until I entered high school when I really realized how big of an issue physical insecurities are for teens.
I guess you could say that since I didn't obsess over my own insecurities, I didn't realize other people's "supposed insecurities". I'm not the type to notice if someone has a pimple on their face, or if they fill out their jeans a little too well. I do notice if someone has something in their teeth (don't worry, I will tell you) or if there shoe is untied or if they're wearing a shirt they've never worn before.
I remember this one time a friend and I were looking at some photos that we took from the beach. There was one photo that was a group shot of about 5 of us. We were all cheezin' and it looked like we were having a good time. I was about to post the picture on instagram when my friend said to me,
"Are you sure you wanna do that? Look at *Rebecca in the picture, she looks kind of big."
And so I looked at the photo again and looked at *Rebecca. She was smiling like everyone else in the picture but I could see what my friend was talking about.
I guess one of my main points is that "you are your own biggest critic". Half the time people are too worried about themselves to notice your insecurities, and if they do well WHO CARES. That pimple on your face that you might think is super obvious, most likely no one will even notice until you point it out to them (trust me I know from experience).
Throughout the years as I have come to terms with the way I look. I don't get embarrassed as much if theres a big pimple on my face (everyone gets them, just put on little makeup if you want to), my forehead size is not a priority (I've learned to style my hair in ways that hide it), and whether I have curves or not is no ones business. I have learned to become more comfortable with the body that I was given.
Some of my favorite pictures of myself are of me not looking my best. I will admit that I do try to look my best at any possible chance, but I also love to laugh at myself. And I think its good to laugh at yourself everyone in a while (or all of the time).
So here are a couple of mistaken/purposely taken photos of my being a dork :))))
*Name changed to protect identity of the girl.