Lately I've been feeling distant. Life is going really well and I'm so thankful for the experiences that I have been through and the people who have come into my life but for some reason I've been feeling
I can't make up my mind about things,
I have zero motivation to do ANYTHING
and I don't know why.
It feels like everything is black and white
There are times when I'm vibrant and eccentric and I have fun, but for some reason I always come back to the same feeling, usually when I'm about to fall asleep that somethings missing.
If everything is going well why don't I feel the same way?
So to try and cheer myself up I searched the depths of my laptop for pictures of me when I was genuinely enjoying myself.
I feel like life is like a box of Lucky Charms.
You have the bland wheat flakes shaped into things that no one truly understands. Kind of boring no one really likes them (especially little kids). These represent the monotonous times in life when nothing is really going on, theres no excitement and you don't feel like you're actually living.
Then there are the marshmallows, everyone's favorite. They're colorful and tasty and SWEET. These are the sparse and special moments that happen everyone once in a while that have you craving more, that have you smiling like the little kid whose only had marshmallows for breakfast.
Here are a couple of my marshmallow filled moments from the past year captured in time.
You Make Me Wanna
High School Drop-Out
This is a picture of my friend Madison and I "cheezin" after school one day when all the sophomores and juniors ditched the last part of school and headed to the beach. This was really fun day because everyone hung out together and we swam out to the sandbar to climb on some cliffs and I got to show off my new swim suit (white ruffle top), and I ate a large apple, and I was a HUGE social butterfly that day. I just wanted to laugh and talk and SOAK UP THE SUN :)
All in All I am so thankful for my amazing marshmallow moments. They are definitely my favorite part about waking up in the morning.
So I guess the lesson learned here is that you have to take a couple bites of your bland Lucky Charms, before you can indulge in the delicious marshmallows. :))))