Let's just get right to the point. I'm not doing enough things with my time. I'm not playing any sports, I'm not participating in my school musical, I don't have a job, etc etc. And I think its having a big impact on my my mood and my drive. I do feel that people should relax every once in a while to take a break from things, but I also believe that keeping yourself occupied can keep your mind off of things. Its true about what is said about your junior year of high school: IT SUCKS Junior year is that little spot in the road that you see while driving and then don't realize its a giant buck until you've already hit it. :) There will be nights where you where you stay up until 2 because you procrastinated a paper, there will be many, and I mean MANY, breakdowns, you'll never get used to that lack of sleep, and the weekends will go by waaaaaaaay to quickly. At the beginning of the year you think you can handle it but my the time November rolls around you're regretting taking three AP classes, and sadly it gets worse. Now don't get me wrong I have very much enjoyed my third year of high school but it is the actual school part that has seemed to drain the life out of me every Monday through Friday from 7-2. I think after putting in all your effort for 10 years, your body and mind start to go crazy; especially when Junior year is considered the hardest year of high school. The increased amount of work plus the stress that comes from thinking about college, really takes its toll on a person. You have to think about what college, which major, which AP exam, when to take the SAT or ACT, what scholarships to apply for and so on. Not only do I have no clue what I wanna study in college/do with my life, I also have no clue what classes I want to take next year (the easy or the hard route), and I have to decided by the end of March :) Oh the joy. But the stress and loss of motivation needs to stop. I have noticed that everyday I come home from school and procrastinate my homework until around 7 o'clock to 11 o'clock at night. This is something very abnormal for me considering the fact that I used to refuse to do homework anytime after 9pm. I have no motivation and I think that this is seriously effecting my attitude about things. To help solve this problem I have put together a list of activities that I might take up to help address this problem. 1. Paint everyday for at least 30 minutes Sorry this is really short list but my goal at the end of this is to improve my overall mood (this sounds like a science project lol) and get the motivation back that I have lost throughout the course of junior year. Maybe this will be inspiration to some of you guys to start getting on the right track too. :))
Wish Me Luck, Heavkinz P.S I think my blog posts are a lot more fun when they feature a picture so here is a picture of my sister that I think accurately describes Junior Year. (thanks sis)
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So I saw this on twitter a couple days ago and it gave me an idea about a blog post. Lately I've been feeling distant. Life is going really well and I'm so thankful for the experiences that I have been through and the people who have come into my life but for some reason I've been feeling eh. I can't make up my mind about things, I have zero motivation to do ANYTHING and I don't know why. It feels like everything is black and white bland. There are times when I'm vibrant and eccentric and I have fun, but for some reason I always come back to the same feeling, usually when I'm about to fall asleep that somethings missing. If everything is going well why don't I feel the same way? So to try and cheer myself up I searched the depths of my laptop for pictures of me when I was genuinely enjoying myself. I feel like life is like a box of Lucky Charms. You have the bland wheat flakes shaped into things that no one truly understands. Kind of boring no one really likes them (especially little kids). These represent the monotonous times in life when nothing is really going on, theres no excitement and you don't feel like you're actually living. Then there are the marshmallows, everyone's favorite. They're colorful and tasty and SWEET. These are the sparse and special moments that happen everyone once in a while that have you craving more, that have you smiling like the little kid whose only had marshmallows for breakfast. Here are a couple of my marshmallow filled moments from the past year captured in time. We had a picnic on the grass and ate El Pollo Loco as a family and it made me really appreciate my family even in the complicated situation we were in while on that vacation.
This picture is one of those bittersweet times. I'm sad that it ended but happy that it happened. It was at the beginning of the school year and I really enjoyed having someone to hang out with all the time and go on crazy adventures with even if they were just to Best Buy. It was my first time getting to know someone on a level like that and I will admit that I got scared. But I know now that I will be more prepared for the next relationship I get into. any other weird items Mason could find. During the fall time it felt like we were all there every weekend lol. I loved it because it was a time when all my friends hung out as a group and there was no beef. Everyone just had a good time. We did stuff we probably weren't supposed to, but it was worth it, and we created memories. ALL HAIL THE MIGHTY GOAT HOUSE! close living proximity, we got to also hang out on the weekends as well as in class. Class was always filled with laughter from the three of us and no matter how much Sadie and I bashed on Jared, he still holds a very special place in my heart (freshman crushes never go away). to be back. Then we headed out for ice-cream at Dairy Queen and I ate like half the cone then squeezed the rest in my fist. IT WAS AWESOME. Then later that night we met up with a couple of our other friends and went night swimming and I just felt so happy and cared for that day. I really felt loved by my AMAZING friends :)))
All in All I am so thankful for my amazing marshmallow moments. They are definitely my favorite part about waking up in the morning. So I guess the lesson learned here is that you have to take a couple bites of your bland Lucky Charms, before you can indulge in the delicious marshmallows. :)))) xoxo Heavkinz Despite my expectations for the new year, it has surprisingly been off to a good start. Now I'm not saying that its been perfect but it definitely has blown away my expectations. Its like going to a local restaurant and realizing that the chef was flown in from Italy. I met a lot of new people in January plus my exams were cancelled because of the snow (best late christmas present ever). My second semester of junior years has been a little stressful if I will admit, but I guess thats what happens when you take 5 AP classes (silly me). There are also a lot of new things going on in my life and I would like to say that this is the longest I have ever gone following my new years resolution. Props to me :0 I hope that starting this blog with help me express some of the thoughts and ideas rolling around in my head. Hope you guys enjoy.
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January 2019
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